Work

So.
I get a call 5 minutes after I've woken up to inform me that I'm supposed to be at work. Shit. So now, this isn't very much like me at all. I'm usually always on time, very responsible, pretty amicable and generally a pretty good employee.

Except, that is not how I've been coming across to them at all recently and how it's bugging me. Initially I didn't care, because I knew that I'm a pretty good employee and that I have contributed some to the shop (what a big difference in the world I have made), rather than taking (large sums of money in some cases) like other beloved employees.

I have been messed around a few times with regards to showing up and no one being there and having to trek myself home after no one has told me the shop was closed on the day I was shifted to work. So, when my weekend manager did not arrive on a day I was supposed to work, 15 minutes after the shop was already supposed to be open, I sent my manager a message asking who was supposed to be working to open the shop.

Now, this was taken as me being a complete bitch and going against my weekend manager who now hates me with a passion. Lovely. However it was not the case at all.

Now with regards to me being reliable. Admittedly I did call in one day (as least a day prior to when I should be working) and say that I was sick. Admittedly this was due to the fact that I was writing an exam the day after the day I was working on and needed to study instead. Apparently studying isn't a valid excuse (sorry folks, I don't plan on working in your shitty shop for the whole of my life, studying is how I will get out). However, I do not think that is unreasonable as a casual staff member, I'm not required to get leave. Plus they are constantly telling me that they have too many casuals. Get one of them to work! One other occassion i was *actually* sick while at work with... wait for it.... 5 other people working on ame day. In actuality, the shop only needs 3 people. So I went home. I pitched the very next day, though. Even though I still felt like crap. But I'm sure they forget this to keep up the idea in their mind that I'm unreliable but mostly a bitch.

Now, as a result of this i was further hated and the passive aggressive mumblings started and began to really annoy me. I knew they were pissed off, but they refused to a) solve the situation and b) get it cleared off the plate. Maybe they prefer to hold onto it.

Now today, i did fuck up for real. I forgot that I was shifted in for today or didn't write it down, or missed it on the board. I'm not exactly sure which. To which I recieved a phonecall telling me I should be there. Upon telling her that i could be there within 30min she said that i could leave it and they'll split my money. But the boss will be really annoyed that i didn't pitch.

So i had the delemma of rushing to pitch up and ruining my entire day. Or just saying "yes fine". The thing that annoys me is that the weekend manager will get half of what i was supposed to get. So what the hell is that? She makes me feel like a complete idiot and is still a bitch on top of it, but she is actually benefitting.

I have to try and console myself with the thought that it's just my first job, a casual possition and something i didn't really enjoy anyway. Along with the fact that they haven't exactly treated me in the best way either. It's still not nice to have people disliking you and i genuinely do not like to dissapoint people or to make trouble for people.