I'm going to stop being an imtimidating bitch.
And i;m going to be nice.
And i'm going to stop hurting and being hurt.
And i'll chill the fuck out.
Wednesday, November 21, 2007
Eh
Blah.
Ths just isn't working. And in the meantime i'm apparently really hurting which is the last thing i ever want to do. I mean, fuck, i actually like this guy. And not only do i like him, but i admitted to myself that i like him. Not a particularly easy step for me.
Oh well.
*sigh*
Ths just isn't working. And in the meantime i'm apparently really hurting which is the last thing i ever want to do. I mean, fuck, i actually like this guy. And not only do i like him, but i admitted to myself that i like him. Not a particularly easy step for me.
Oh well.
*sigh*
Monday, November 19, 2007
Review
Haha
Wow, i was just reading through my own rantings and outlets of what came across as mostly anger. And damn, there is so much of it!
I'm glad that it comes out via words and into "cyberspace" rather than in someone's ear where it can pollute their sanity. Haha, wow i give myself a lot of credit.
Anyway, I'd like to think i'm not really an angry person at all, this is just where the most intense versions of it come through. Although the re-visiting of what i've said is probably quite important at to do, at some stage at least. Maybe it will result in a complete re-evaluation. Things are pretty different now, you know.
And you know what.
I really like someone at the moment and despite it hurting fairly badly at time, it's still good in a few ways. THEY'RE good in a few ways. More than good and more than a few, actually.
It's nice.
Wow, i was just reading through my own rantings and outlets of what came across as mostly anger. And damn, there is so much of it!
I'm glad that it comes out via words and into "cyberspace" rather than in someone's ear where it can pollute their sanity. Haha, wow i give myself a lot of credit.
Anyway, I'd like to think i'm not really an angry person at all, this is just where the most intense versions of it come through. Although the re-visiting of what i've said is probably quite important at to do, at some stage at least. Maybe it will result in a complete re-evaluation. Things are pretty different now, you know.
And you know what.
I really like someone at the moment and despite it hurting fairly badly at time, it's still good in a few ways. THEY'RE good in a few ways. More than good and more than a few, actually.
It's nice.
Friday, November 16, 2007
Hallmark Burning
Wow
I'm seriously upset. I think i may be on the brink of tears. I'm fucking tired of this shit. Honestly. Why can't things just be more simple. Why can't things just be communicated to me instead of me having to constantly fucking give of myself and getting nothing back. For fuck sakes, this isn't fair and it seems to always be happening to me. Must be something I'm doing.
What the fuck. Honestly. Why can't people be frank? When you're lying in your grave the potential hurt/heart break/ embarrassment or what the fuck ever will no longer matter.
Hallmark should still make cards saying "fuck you"
I'm seriously upset. I think i may be on the brink of tears. I'm fucking tired of this shit. Honestly. Why can't things just be more simple. Why can't things just be communicated to me instead of me having to constantly fucking give of myself and getting nothing back. For fuck sakes, this isn't fair and it seems to always be happening to me. Must be something I'm doing.
What the fuck. Honestly. Why can't people be frank? When you're lying in your grave the potential hurt/heart break/ embarrassment or what the fuck ever will no longer matter.
Hallmark should still make cards saying "fuck you"
Thursday, November 8, 2007
Mysteries Uncovered
There's something about meeting someone new that is so exhilarating. Exploring their mind and personality is particularly exciting when they have undertones of mystery. It is something new added to an otherwise bland every day life, but I'm starting to wonder if it's when the mystery wears off that there is no longer an appeal? Or maybe the mystery that you've uncovered is not quite the one you were hoping for. I hope this mystery lasts. The trill is something I've been needing. No more disappointments, please.
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